24 weeks

Whoops! Losing track of time again!

So, everything is still going well -- next appt is Thursday. I'm sure that I will have to do the orange drink test in the next month. Weight continues to be odd. I definitely am losing weight in other places, but my belly is growing. My appetite continues to be strange. Some days -- no problem eating. Other days, not so much. I have to force myself to eat and even then, it's not that much. Today is one of those days, for instance. I almost think it's related to my state of mind.

I have been feeling very down lately and things are kind of a struggle for me again. I hate feeling this way. I don't like feeling like I have to power through life. I would rather just be able to do things without it being hard. Just have to work it out. I think the easiest solution that I have found so far, is to get some quiet time -- just for me. Now that Jake is done being busy for the summer, it should be easier, I hope. :)

Good days and bad days, you know?

Lily is kicking up a storm. She's a lot lower than Ryan ever was, so think that I look bigger than I did at this point with Ryan, but I also feel like I am still on the smaller side for being 24 weeks preggers. :) She rolls a lot too -- or at least, that's what it feels like to me. I have actually reached "viability" now, so if, god forbid, she was born early, she might have a chance to survive at this point. I'll be in the third tri in just a couple of weeks. Only 15-16 more weeks to go.

Someone asked me today if I was enjoying it more, now that I wasn't so sick. The truth: No. I hate being pregnant. I really, really do. It's just a necessary evil. I feel terrible saying that, as there are SO many women in the world that have trouble and they don't deserve it - nobody does! So, I try not to complain about things, but good gosh, I hate it. haha Plus, I am still sick to my stomach every day -- I don't think it will go away until I give birth. That's what mint gum is for, right?

I do have belly pics, I should share. :)

I think this was 12 weeks:

This was 16 weeks.

I have twenty and twenty four somewhere...I'll put them up in the next post -- I'm sure that I will post after my doc appt. Actually, I promise to (just for you Becky!)

Oh, and in case anyone is interested, Jake, Ryan and I will be in Eau Claire on Sept 29 and Oct 1 (we will be in Duluth the day in between). I suspect a trip to El Patio will happen. I'm not sure how Ryan will do with all the weirdness, but he's coming with us. I want him to meet the people that I like that live far away! :)

21 weeks

Nothing new to report here.  I finally got the ultrasound report copy from the retired doctor (not my OB).   I think what I have is marginal placenta previa, so I'm not too worried.  It's not covering up anything, it's just RIGHT THERE.   So, no big deal for now.   If it becomes a big deal, then it is.   :)

I did end up buying a few things for Lily.   I didn't go crazy or anything.   Plus, I'm not really sure what I'm going to need vs. not need.   I had a summer baby the first time.   This trying to think about winter in the middle of August confuses and scares me.   :)  But, I went through Ryan's old baby clothes and found stuff that I thought would work for her in the long run, pulled out stuff that I don't care about keeping and am saving the rest.   I'm undecided if I will ever have more or not.   I just don't know if I want to do this again.  

I don't know if it's being pregnant with a girl or being pregnant when over 30.   I just feel like this was much easier at age 28/29 than 31/32.  I certainly don't think of myself as being 31, but the reality is that I AM.   So, I'm just not sure about doing it again or not.   It just seems very final to say -- DONE!

Of course, after this one, we have a lot of monetary work to do to get back to even.   We are in a much better place than we were with Ryan, but it will take work still.   I would think that by 2014, we should be down to very little revolving debt and left with just the mortgage and the student loans.   Minimal revolving debt is what I am going for now.

We did put Ryan into a big boy bed and he really loves it -- this is MUCH more successful than last year.   Huzzah!   (I'm from the 1800's now).  We got my old day bed from my mom and dad and an old dresser of theirs, which has drawers and shelves for storage and totally rocks.   I haven't even filled it with everything yet.   I'm trying to decide what to do with it.   It's almost too much.   :)  

But, the crib went into the back room along with anything I'm holding onto for Lily.   No more desk back there.   The filing cabinet went upstairs and the desk is sitting by the bay window, next to the dishwasher, which I actually like.  I have to clean it out and organize it, so I can use it for work, but it's really nice being there.   Our tiny little house isn't too bad -- everything just has to be cozy.   And we still have a guest bed upstairs, which is really awesome as far as I'm concerned.   That's bedroom #4.  

As soon as things get cleaned up a lot more, I will post pics of the new arrangements -- it will probably be on facebook, for sure.   :)