9 weeks

It's offical:  My zoloft was making my nausea like 10 times worse than Ryan, and I thought it was bad with Ryan.  I pretty much was unable to function by the end of the day.  So, I saw my doc and we started the weaning process.  And during the weaning process was really when I learned how bad my nausea was from zoloft.   So, I pretty much have just stopped taking it.  I mean, if I start getting nutty again, I will probably take half a pill a day, but I am thinking that I will be ok.

The symptoms this time are very strange and DIFFERENT!   I know that they say every pregnancy is different, but it's really true.   The first two:  nothing, not sick, not anything.  And, we know how those ended.  Ryan:  very sick from like 7 weeks until about 11 or 12.  This one:  sick almost right away -- like 6 weeks through present.  But, it's different.  Like, I want to eat, but I have that sour stomach feeling all the time.  So, I end up eating a lot of things during the day to make it go away.  So, far, I have been pretty healthy about it, but the past couple days, artichoke dip cravings have raised their head (which, frankly, is really a craving for eating cream cheese.  I would eat that stuff straight up...and I do sometimes).  So, I indulge.   I swear, once I am past hearing the heartbeat and seeing my little bean on the ultrasound screen, I will try to exercise.  Promise!

But, overall, everything was earlier than with Ryan and stronger, for lack of a better term.   Maybe it's a girl.   Who knows!

Second doc appt on Thursday -- we are trying to hear the h/b through my tummy again (which it's too early and I'm too large and in charge in the stomach area) and I think then he will give me orders for an ultrasound, just to check dates.   And if not, then I will request one.  I'm not waiting for 20 weeks.   I also have plans to ask about growth checks with this one.   Ryan was so tiny, I'm just wary of having a second tiny tot.  I think he was starving.
And frankly, if he blows me off about it, or doesn't seem all that concerned, I will probably be transferring my care or at least getting a second opinion.  He seems to blow off my concerns sometimes.   Plus, I get tired of having to drive hither and yon for my tests.  I'd rather just go to WAM and have a one stop shop.

Yeah, yeah, I know:  I've said it before.   The trouble I have walking away is because he is a really excellent surgeon.  And when you are doing c section two, I would prefer the OB who is an excellent surgeon.  So, I talk a big game, but when it really comes down to it, he does have a lot of experience with these things and probably knows best.   And he knows when to just listen to me and let me come in for a NST when I'm a week overdue and having weird ass contractions/early labor.  Esp when my child fails said NST.  and then he's delivered.

So, all in all, I'm feeling slightly better, I'm still really tired all the time, and I still have the usually preggo symptoms.   Tally ho!

8 weeks

Had my first appt.  Total bust on finding the heartbeat in the office.  I got back June 2, at 10 weeks.  I don't think that we'll find it then either, but maybe I'll be surprised.  I think that I'll probably be having an ultrasound in the second week of June.

I believe that the sort of my ending nausea was my Zoloft.   One of the side effects is nausea.  Perhaps in pregnancy, it's worse.  So, I experimented yesterday, and it's much, much better today.   I even ate.  I ate too much, but I ate.   Panera was AWESOME!!!!

Nothing much else to say.   This one is rolling along, easy breezy.

Sort of weird, after all the madness of the first three times.

7 weeks

I'm undecided if I'm going to post on my regular blog yet or not;  I think that I'll give it a couple more weeks.

10 weeks and I'll make it public.

Based on how I feel, I could just do it now.

I started Zofran today, for the nausea.  It got really, really bad over the weekend.  Like, I could barely function.  Which, I TOTALLY remember the last time.  Ugh!   So, I called the Dr. for the prescription today.  And Jake ran it over to me at work and I took my pill -- and it worked right away and I was thrilled!!

So, I actually got to eat two regular meals today.  Thrilling!  

The only bad thing was that I was sick for Mother's Day and I missed my annual pigging out at Broach Irish Pub for breakfast.  :(  Maybe next year.   Or maybe Jake and I will have to run over there by ourselves some morning.  A breakfast date or something.  :)

So, nothing new to report this week otherwise.  The feeling sick is great, because it is very much like what happened with Ryan.   Hooray!

I have a feeling that this one is a boy too -- I want the same exact things to eat as with Ryan.  Burgers, Gatorade, Cereal, Subs, etc. etc. etc.     So, now I have to think of boy names again.  I'm taking suggestions! :)

6 weeks

The nausea, she has arrived.  Ugh!

I don't know what to eat to make it go away here.  I think that I'm going to have to take extra B6 vitamins or a girl on my DDC board recommended ginger root capsules or something.

I got my betas back from the doc:
4/19: 47.9
4/28: 2,606

This equals a doubling time of around 37.48 hours, and my doc, I think, likes it to double every 3 days.  And this is every day and a half!   Which is how Ryan went, so I am VERY positive.   Almost positive enough to blog on the other blog about it.  I think that I will wait a bit though.   Just because.

I assume that under the same doubling time and even a bit slower, I am around 12-16,000 for HCG levels right now, which is great to me!  Everything can go ok with this one, as far as I am concerned.

My first doc appt is May 19th at 4:45pm and then I think they will send over the orders for an ultrasound around 10-12 weeks.  Which, I am thrilled for, because the pics are much more baby like at that point.  I am sort of hoping that I can have it on May 31st, but he might want me to wait longer.  Which is ok too.

Until next week!